Friday 18 May 2012

My home.

Before God saved me I swore there were three things I would never do. One was to live in Muirhevna Mor. Since my conversion almost eleven years ago God has turned my life around and I found myself doing the very three things I swore I would never do.
Muirhevna Mor has been my home now for almost ten year.(you can never convince me God doesn't have a sense of humour). It's exactly where God wants me and my family to be. When I say it's my home I mean it in the sense of belonging, warmth, having found my niche, my field for harvesting. It's a place that I love and it's a people that I love. It has been, and continues to be one of the major source of blessings, of gifts you might say, from God to me. Isn't He amazing? Isn't it just one miracle after another? Doesn't He sometimes use the strangest things (and people) to bring glory to Himself?
He doesn't just change a persons sin life, sometimes He changes their ordinary desires too. It makes me smile just thinking of Him :)

I think I will look a little more into these blessings over the next few weeks and blog about them.

Ground Hog Day

A few weeks ago Niall and I celebrated the 10th anniversary of our first date together. Next month we will celebrate the 10th anniversary of our engagement and on November 3rd, we will, Lord willing, celebrate our 10th wedding anniversary together.

When Niall reminded me of the April anniversary that night in our sitting room I was struck with feelings of relief. No disaster had befallen me, Niall or Sean during the past ten years.  I didn't realise it, but since God saved me and joined me to Niall, I had been constantly waiting for disaster to strike, again.

A long time ago my eleven year relationship with Dave in Dublin broke down and I lost my friends and home through moving back to Dundalk. Later Sean's father died in a car accident leaving me pregnant. Later still God used other hard things to bring me to Him. Eventually I submitted my life to Him, but I realise now that I have lived these last ten years waiting for Him to take Sean away from me, to take Niall away from me or to take my health away from me... and it's taken ten years for me to look back and realise that all those anxious thoughts were in vain. This ten year mile stone has given me the chance to take courage and Lord willing,  face the next ten years with a more relaxed and optimistic view.

It's not that I didn't trust God. I know very well that He is in control of every situation in my life and thats the point. When I didn't believe in God I thought I was in control. Now I know that God is, and I know that He allowed all those miserable things to happen to me to draw me to Him.
But you know, if my life was a perpetual 'Ground Hog Day', and if I had to repeat the pain of Dublin, Newry and Dundalk again and again and again in order for the Lord to draw me to Him, I would do it gladly.

Although the scars run very deep, I will bring this situation to God and ask Him to help me to put all these thoughts out of my mind when they creep in. He will heal this too. Whatever the future holds, I'll try not to worry about it and count me blessings for today...

...and my blessings are many.

Monday 27 February 2012

Catching up.

Ahhh, it's been too long and I have been neglecting this old blog of mine, which would be a pity because I have it up and running about 5 years now.

Things as good in the MacCarthaigh house hold. Niall still hasn't a full time job yet but is is keeping very busy with the odd job here and there, keeping up with things about the house and doing voluntary work. He is teaching the board members of a local Credit Union how to use ipads and as you can imagine he is really enjoying that! His health, as usual is good thank God and he is as happy and full of life as he normally is:)

Sean is still loving school. He is really enjoying the tec drawing, wood work, metal work, computers, science and sports and also plays badminton outside school hours on the school premises. He seems to be taking after his first dad and running well. His school has asked him to run in some events that will be coming up soon and I think that pleases not only me but his granny Tess. He is still keeping up with his swimming, training for his two hour sponsor treading water to raise money to keep his sailing boat in the Sailing Club in Carlingford and he has started to attend the gym in Aura. His health is quite poor but we, along with our GP and his Paediatrician. He gets bullied over his height but is coping with it ok.

As for me, well, I am fine. Loving the women's ministery course in Moyra Baptist College and very sad it will be wrapping up for the year soon. Have to get off the lap top! Will be back soon I hope.